Lets get back to blogging

Aint no use sitting around and sulking. Nobody is going to get things done for me. So get up. go get'em!  I thought I'd start by completing some yearly reviews... watch this space: 2022 - ?? 2021 - ?? 2020 - ?? 2019 - Holding on 2018 - Priorities 2017 - Unexpected...

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What 4 weeks unplanned leave can do to you

I've recently found myself on the wrong side of a mandatory vaccination policy of the company that I work for. When my breach of policy became official I was put on leave until it all got sorted. This ended up being 4 weeks leave. During these 4 weeks I found myself...

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Nobody but me

Who is taking care of you when you cant do it yourself? Nobody but me. When its not your day, and things just dont work out, who is there to help you out? Nobody but me. When the bills pile up and expenses just dont seem to stop who is there to extend a hand? Nobody...

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Escape from your noose

This song really meant a lot to me long ago. It makes me thing about the additions I have, had and beat, still sitting with. Despite of beating it, how much damage did they do? Here's the lyrics, and the song. Listen out loud.     So glad to see you well Overcome and...

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Back on track?

It's been a while and strangely "life found a way". I am making a few important decisions. But for now the focus is on me. What can I do more, better. Time to dig deep and fight. Get my life on track. I just cannot help to wonder if it will be worth it. But lets not...

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Where do my strength come from?

Things have found a way. Better? the same? I don't know. What I do know, is it is not easy. I have various paths before me and neither of them look to be the easy or straight path. How do I stay strong? Where do I get more patience? I don't know.

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My 41st, time to make a change

In 4 days I will be 41 years old. This will be the third consecutive birthday where my relationship is in such a state that I don't even want to celebrate my birthday. Can  I sacrifice another year for this? My son is my life and hope and I will do anything for him....

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The end of 2020

Many people will be glad this year is over. But I am afraid not much is going to change going into 2021. With COVID-19 sweeping again across the country and the world I cannot see things go back to "normal" anytime soon. What is normal anyway? The new normal of...

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Self-mastery

I was blown away by this talk. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-079YIasck   5 Hindrances: - Sensual desire: From senses, as you climb you get distracted, hunger, etc. - Ill will/aversion - negative emotions, dislike against something/ situation / person. In climbing...

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My current world in a few words

It's day one hundred and fifty something of lockdown. Will we ever get out of this? Will liitf ever get back to normal? Is this the new normal? Here's the things that have been consuming my life the last 4 months: Work My Son Sleep Star Craft 2 Studying Home DIY What...

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The Sumerians, Babylonians and Gilgamesh

I've been reading about the Sumerians and the Epic of Gilgamesh, an epic tale (or poem) that is found on a tablet that is the second oldest surviving piece of "literature" in the world. The tale of Gilgamesh was discovered in 1849 CE by the archaeologist Austin Henry...

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