Escape from your noose

This song really meant a lot to me long ago. It makes me thing about the additions I have, had and beat, still sitting with. Despite of beating it, how much damage did they do? Here's the lyrics, and the song. Listen out loud.     So glad to see you well Overcome and...

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Back on track?

It's been a while and strangely "life found a way". I am making a few important decisions. But for now the focus is on me. What can I do more, better. Time to dig deep and fight. Get my life on track. I just cannot help to wonder if it will be worth it. But lets not...

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Where do my strength come from?

Things have found a way. Better? the same? I don't know. What I do know, is it is not easy. I have various paths before me and neither of them look to be the easy or straight path. How do I stay strong? Where do I get more patience? I don't know.

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My 41st, time to make a change

In 4 days I will be 41 years old. This will be the third consecutive birthday where my relationship is in such a state that I don't even want to celebrate my birthday. Can  I sacrifice another year for this? My son is my life and hope and I will do anything for him....

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The end of 2020

Many people will be glad this year is over. But I am afraid not much is going to change going into 2021. With COVID-19 sweeping again across the country and the world I cannot see things go back to "normal" anytime soon. What is normal anyway? The new normal of...

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Self-mastery

I was blown away by this talk. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-079YIasck   5 Hindrances: - Sensual desire: From senses, as you climb you get distracted, hunger, etc. - Ill will/aversion - negative emotions, dislike against something/ situation / person. In climbing...

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My current world in a few words

It's day one hundred and fifty something of lockdown. Will we ever get out of this? Will liitf ever get back to normal? Is this the new normal? Here's the things that have been consuming my life the last 4 months: Work My Son Sleep Star Craft 2 Studying Home DIY What...

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The Sumerians, Babylonians and Gilgamesh

I've been reading about the Sumerians and the Epic of Gilgamesh, an epic tale (or poem) that is found on a tablet that is the second oldest surviving piece of "literature" in the world. The tale of Gilgamesh was discovered in 1849 CE by the archaeologist Austin Henry...

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LockdownSA: Day 42

As the lockdown continues I start to make peace with the fact that this way of loving will be my life for the largest part of the rest of the year. I'm thinking maybe even September. It's now when you really start to think about things in a more permanent sense: I...

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LockdownSA: Day 38

It's been 28 days of lockdown in South Africa. I would never have guessed that our me, my family, friends, work, country and the rest of the world would ever be in a situation such as this. Today is day 39 of the lockdown and we are all in a fixed new routine already....

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12 Rules for life

I really like Jordan B. Peterson. He's aggressive yet composed stance on many controversial issues that plague humanity  today makes me take notice and empowers me to look at things in a new way. I kinda forgot about him for a while as things got really intense here...

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